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From Lack to Allowing Trust

This post is for my 10/08/21 Group Distance Reiki Session. If you are reading this at any time please know the energy and message, as it resonates, is perfect for you.

Make an offering.

Setting up today's altar came the idea of offering, but then an intense headache at the statement "make an offering". I applied the Past Tense essential oil blend by doTERRA to the forehead and temples and looked deeper at this idea.

Some of the magic today is about making an offering. This doesn't mean giving of ourselves, it is giving *through* ourselves. With heart-and-soul-giving you don't lose anything, on the contrary, you gain that much more! Rather than something that feels like a sacrifice or an attachment, think about what you have in abundance, and faith in, and from that please notice what you can offer right now. Be it tiny or immense, giving from this place further fulfills you... and then rejoice in that offering.

I played a Delta wave audio track with the intention to release guilt and fear.

Connecting in I immediately had a feeling a deep heaviness at the center of the chest. From the midline, starting a bit below the neck and stretching down to the bottom of the ribs. A concaving pressure splitting out sideways to the ribs, like parting seas or butterfly wings.

An image of slow-motion grasping, reaching, falling, stretching out, one arm extended, golden-amber hair. This slow, near-ground reaching, repeating over and over. At first feeling like a diving/tripping as if to reached for a snatched bag, then sweeping the view back away to a larger scene it felt like more of a heart-loss, wanting to hold on... grasping after a bus or train that's pulling away.

Many faces looking toward a choice. A feeling of being in the spotlight. Much attention on a recent decision - some in awe, proud, others more authoritarian or judging.

Then came the idea that acute situations need acute treatment. When a bone is broken we set and secure it, rather than wait to see how it fares on its own. If we want to meditate but a child is crying we attend to the child. These choices are necessary and normal, all a part of the ebb and flow of life. Just because we attend to something critical in the moment we are not losing our self or our sense of (commitment to) self-care. Trust you still care for yourself and make choices amongst the changes in life. Whether spans of minutes, hours, or even days or weeks, change is coming. The more we care for ourselves often the more sensitive we become to any deviation from that path and commitment - yet, when we regret or resist the moment that presents itself, we have lost a bit of our trust in the universe and understanding of the counter-balances that exist in all life.

More heaviness at the Heart, this time more centered in one location. The visual of blood flowing, whirling, pooling around death and loss. The word or name: Bas (Boz, Bause).

A siren, an urgent and startling distraction. Waves of confusion and panic for just a splinter of time that feels like minutes. Allowing the breath and reset - a true example of an acute situation - even when it's just in our head! Address, manage, handle, then re-center and ask, "what do I need in this moment?"

...a good segue, and question, for a card draw.

From Sandra Anne Taylor's "Energy Oracle Cards" deck we received: #20 ENVY, reversed. A lot of heavy emotions today, which might be considered darker, but a sense of them moving through. A chance for clearing -while this maybe includes feeling (re-feeling) first- then the potential for full release. There is an air of acceptance and very powerful transitioning, transforming, and impending light. (Even a dark-ish adjective comes to describe the future brightening. Perhaps it feels far-off, or not yet ready to be trusted.) The themes of the notes from this card draw, and overall today's full session, seem highlighted well within the guidebook descriptions for #20 ENVY, in whether upright or inverted, so I'm including the full description in both directions below.)

I set the stage with a clearing ceremony before today's session began, which I believed help many of these intense emotions come to light and move through. Another clearing energy sweep closed the session. The messages resound of 'accept' and 'trust' today - you have everything you need to move through whatever comes up, and will always be brighter and stronger for the experience.

Donations lovingly accepted here.

Today's Card

from Sandra Anne Taylor's "Energy Oracle Cards" deck

#20 ENVY

Lack, Dissatisfaction


This card shows a woman holding a huge pearl in one hand and platter of coins and pearls in the other. She stands in a silver room looking out at a golden city on the horizon. She has a life of value already, but she ignores that and longs for the shining prosperity she sees elsewhere. Instead of feeling happy and fulfilled her desire for more only causes a deep sense of lack and dissatisfaction, and that energy shows in her dress.

This card upright is telling you to let go of the jealousy and acknowledge the blessings you already have in your life. Now is the time to shift your focus. After all, when you envy others, it only attracts more to them - not you.

Notice all that you have, and thank the Universe for it. If this card is near the Appreciation card in your spread, the message is doubly important. Now is the time to move from a consciousness of lack to one of value. With this shift, all things change.


This card reversed heralds a great time of joy and appreciation. Your choices to shift your focus for future longing to present gratitude creates a significant difference in your energy field and moves out in a dramatic and radiant way to attract more to you. You know that you can keep your eye on future goals without losing sight of your present gifts.

So continue to release any old feelings of envy or lack whenever those thoughts or emotions come up. You're well on your way to a completely gratifying life, and your genuine acknowledgement of the value within and around you will only keep drawing more value to you.

AFFIRMATION: I let go of lack. I look at the blessings in my life with joy and satisfaction. I am glad.

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